Okay, you did a fear audit on yourself. You wrote a list of all the things that made you afraid, made you worry and kept you awake at nights. What next? You need to get a new pair of eyes that can see things your regular eyes can’t. Intuitive eyes that notice subtle stuff — like how most of your everyday actions and decisions are ordered by your hidden fears. It’s not hard to get them.
You just need to calm yourself down long enough to become comfortable with the world that exists within.
As you quieten your mind and hush the turbulent waves inside, you slowly begin to see the lucid depths below — all the way to the bottom where your fears lurk. Pull out that fear audit and start. You begin to notice how a worry rises like a bubble, twirling and growing in size, how it winks on the surface and suddenly pops into a thought or a decision. As you watch, pop, another worry breaks. You see yourself unconsciously thinking the same old worn out thoughts you just finished thinking a while back. Or, you notice how you suddenly arrived at a decision to do something. In a flash of understanding you realise that both the thought and the decision was totally wrong for you, simply because it will just serve to increase fear levels and lead to more of the same in a never-ending manic cycle. Flash! A sword appears from nowhere and cuts that thought off and throws it away — or reverses that decision and resets your mind.
This clear-sighted intuition is your chief weapon in this war against yourself. In time you will learn to use it like a scalpel to cut away dead parts of your mind that are rotting away. Sometimes all it takes is a mental shout that says, “Go Away!” and the old dumb fear will take its leave. Sometimes you observe that much damage has already happened and needs serious working on. You roll up the sleeves and pull out the sword to slash away. All war is serious business, when the battle is against yourself, it’s even more serious. Become a true warrior. Rise and destroy your fears one by one.
Now the benediction. As the worries leave, as the scars heal, you will feel an unbearable lightness within — a rising gladness, a sudden breaking into laughter, a quick hop step and dance, a joy unreasonable, unfathomable, unannounced. You’ll taste the present moment in all its spontaneity, and as you feel this delight, as you do this victory lap you’ll know why it was worth fighting the battle. Cheers!